the awkwardness..

what would you feel when you have to stop doing things that you have been doing for 3 years??
this awkwardness came to me last 2 days which is 8/11/2011..
for 3 years i have been wishing someone a very good morning, wishing good night, happy performing solah..
and the feeling wished by a person that so close to you..

what would you feel when you have to stop it so suddenly??
how can you aspect your heart will be??
can you stop thinking about that person??
can you tell yourself that you r happy??
n can you tell yourself that the person have his own reason for doing this??
n can you tell yourself that both of you make a right decision??
n mostly, what am i thinking is, everything happen to me is childish..
why??because a true matured person will not make such decision..
that's all..

in a blink of eye..

dalam sekelip mate jer aq da berubah..

tanpa aq sedari aq semakin jaoh dari Nya..x tau kenape tp aq amat merasainya..n kepada sesape yg penah satu matrik ngan aq, aq rse korang akan merasa jurang perbezaan yg amat besar antara perangai aq dlu n skunk..

lau nk tau sangat perbezaan nye camnie...

dlu mungkin yg putih tuh selalu membantu aq..tp aq rse skunk nie yg merah tuh lagi byk menghasut aq..n aper yg penting bukan nye hasutan mereka..tp sebab kan aq terlalu lemah tuk menghalang hasutan itu..malah aq ikot dan terus masok dalam hasutan itu..aq sendiri x tau kenape aq jadi camnie..

aq berharap peningkatan dari umor aq nie memberi perubahan kepada hidup aq nie..bukan seperti dlu..

amin..

adios..